Monday December 12, 2005
I am feeling reasonably calm and happy right now. Most of our circumstances haven’t actually changed, but I am doing much better. I think it is because I am feeling very loved and cared about right now, and that has helped in ways you can’t imagine.
I can feel the prayers. It is almost like a blanket, or a soft buzz in my head that drowns out my worries and stress. Every once in a while something will pierce it, but it soon heals itself and I am fine again. I also had a “Christmas Angel” step forward and help us out so our most basic needs are met, including gas for all the trips to the doctor’s office. No more wondering if symptoms justify trying to scrape up the cash for gas to get to the doctor…I can listen to my instincts a lot better when finances aren’t tangled in there. Yesterday we were able to get a big bag of oranges and not worry about it…all three of us have been blissed out on oranges for the last few days. lol. Healthy and fun. Simple pleasures are the best, I tell ya.
Zane is going to have some adjusting to do when life gets back to ‘normal’, what ever that will be. One thing it will be is a lot less time on the computer and video games. Granted, most of them are educational, but I don’t want it to dominate his day the way it does right now. At least he isn’t a couch potato when he is doing those things…I hardly ever see him actually sit still while playing, even on the electronic stuff. I am shocked at how much he knows though. Yesterday he was playing some online game with Dora and was playing it in Spanish instead of English, and getting it. People are going to think he comes from a bilingual household. lol. He also knows where the “radio” is on the Noggin site. He will find that, turn it on, and then stand in the middle of the room dancing to the music, sometimes for well over an hour. Oobi also has a little dance routine that he gets a kick out of….it instructs you to shake, dance like a snake, and jump, and twist, and go forward and back (there might be some more too). He plays it over and over and dances until he is giggling so hard he has a hard time standing and is out of breath. It is such a joy to watch.
He does still spend a significant amount of time with his little people, trains, cars, blocks, books & coloring/activity books, so it isn’t all electronic stuff, just more than I would like. He has learned that mama can’t get up very well though and I now have stacks of books and art supplies around my chair where he brings me things to read and do with him. Very sweet.
Very beautiful entry–the love you speak of emanates through. Good luck in these last few weeks of your pregnancy, and I wish you and your family a wonderful birth.
Last night when I talked to you about your dads’ family reunion, I could hear your smile. It was good to hear.
In church, the advent candle that was lit a week ago was the ‘Angel Candle’. Yesterday during our ‘time of sharing’ I shared about your Christmas Angel. I almost didn’t cry! I hope Christmas Angel can feel in some small way how much she has effected our lives too. She has been such a blessing to your family, words can’t describe.
I hope you can maintain your peaceful state. Zane will feel it and should respond accordingly.
Oh! Did I tell you that I got the baby basket from your cousin? It’s the one that has been used to carry each baby home since your grandparents had their first baby. Your Uncle G is 70 yrs old and was the second baby to use it. It will go back to your Aunt J when you are done using it. I think with Zane you used it to go from the car seat to the house, and we took pictures of you at the door at Lenexa. With Peanut coming early, you might like to use the bedie beside your bed for a while. I think thats what you did with Zane. Your choice, of course, but this adds options.
I love you, Sunshine!
So sweet! It is so wonderful you guys have been so blessed, and I know you’ll continue to be so blessed in the future.
glad you can feel all the love and are blessed by it…